First Post in Year 2017

Year 2017 edy...

Just realize that I did not update any post since long time ago.. 2 years..

Life is going on, but nothing special for me to record in my life.. maybe..

Beginning of the year, just few days passed, should be a brand new year for all..

However it seem like not a good year for me..

05 Jan 17
Unfortunate thing happened to me.. Feel embarrassed..
Luckily not many people saw and got to know..
Self-consolation..

06 Jan 17
Feel tired and moody suddenly..
Just like what I mention on my previous old post- "one year may have few days that I feel down and depression"..

Lack of motiveness in my life.. Bored bored days..

Found that I am not as tough as I thought..
Somehow I will be a fragile person as well..

May because of some not intentional words influence nor affect my sentiment..
Especially when I am moody..
May becomes too sensitive..

Although it may be true, but when I saw and it touch my sentiment, may feel hurt..
After a lapse of 7 or 8 years, even tears..
From my inner heart..

07 Jan 17
Recall today, actually is not a serious or big things..
Personal problem.. emotional instability sequelae..
Hopefully this kind of incident may not occur anymore..

Forget yesterday, persue to a better day of life today..


Kaitlyn
07th Jan 2017; 12.01pm

四月

每年当中，总有那几天让人心情低弱的日子，会让人觉得无力。。。
好想要一个悠长的假期来舒缓下生活的压力。。。
偶尔疯一下，可以忘了自己是谁。。。

心情一当不好，就会一直延续下去，不知哪天才会痊愈。。。
只望那一天能豁然的日子可以早一些到来。。

想想，这股让我感觉那般低弱的日子其实之中六以后就未曾有过。。
也算是蛮久了吧。。。毕竟已事过五六年了。。
哎。。。

希望这次所维持的时间不会太长。。。
不要去想那么多了，坚强一点吧。。
一定可以做到的，加油！！

凯琳
笔于二零一四年四月九日
上午 十一点二十分

Hard Rock Café- Melaka

Recently, have a visit on Melaka.
Yet, having our dinner inside Hard Rock Café, Melaka.
Accidentally, found an incredible band over there.
How Rock, Energetic and Awesome of these Band- NRG Band!!
Highly recommended for me- to those who loving the music so much!
Definitely your guys will enjoy in their music world!!


Regrettably, don’t know how long that band will stay over there.
So, do not miss and grab the chance to have a visit over there!
However, do remember that the cost of expenses in the Hard Rock Café may not cheap.
The prices may be considered quiet expensive for some people.
If you afford to do so, please don’t miss it.


* One thing to remind your guys is that the parking fees over there is quiet expensive.
So, do not park your car inside the car park if possible if you want to save your money.
However, this is only my suggestion.

My dearest, lovely Big daddy

Unable access to internet few days ago...
My internet service is granted back on 14th October 2012...
Log in to facebook to update all the recent news that I miss for few days...
However, saw a bad bad new...
My dearest, lovely Big Daddy passes away few days ago!!!
It’s just a nightmare to me...
I even can’t believe it...
Is it a joke? I don’t know...
In order to verify it, immediate double check the news over the related pages/ posts...
Oh, GOD, it’s really real...
My heart breaking...
Tears in my eyes...
I can’t think...
All the memories of you and me appear in my mind...
All things like happened yesterday only...
It’s seemed likes you still stay besides of me...
I even can’t believe that we did separate more than one year already...
How could this thing happen to you- My Big...
You such a best friend to me...
You such a Dad to me...
You such my advisor, my soul mate...
I still remember how you took care of me while I’m over there...
In the place that I’m not familiar with...

I still remember all of it...
Those things between both of us...
The pizza that you ask Sal to prepare in order we can have it in our lunch time for tomorrow hiking at Hume Lake...
Even thought at last I did not have it with you...
But what you done for me, it’s always keep on my mind...
I still remember...
The fruits beer that you give to me, Yolanda, Emily and Xiao Ling...
I thought you just kidding with me that you will bring it for me...
But you did keep it on your mind...
You remember it!!
And does give it to us in Eugene’s birthday party...
I still remember...
In my working times, you ask me to take a rest for a moment and resume my works back afterwards...
And the cookies that you give to me in C building- Sequoia building...
The deal/ secret make between both of us...
The barbeque that you make for us...
The party that you invited me to join in...
The hugs from you...
The things that you told to me...
The games that we play which you partner with me...
The heavy luggage that you help me to took when I want to leave over the place I’m stay...
As well as the advice from you on my Las Vegas trip...
And all the others things that you done for me...

Even I’m quiet mean to you... But you still treat me very good...
I’m so guilty about it...
Those things that I become mean to you...
The promises that i make to you but I’m not managed to fulfill in...
The day that not behave well to you......
Yet, I did do a lot of things that make you unhappy or disappointed with...
I can’t even know that you suffer with your health problems...
Why? How can I act like this to you?!!!
Really hate myself!!!
But, in my heart, you still my dearest lovely Big Daddy...
I’m really love you, Big Daddy...
That’s my true heart...
I seldom open my heart to anyone... except you...
Even the times that I met you not so long...
Just few months, but you really play an important role in my life...
You such an awesome guy for me as well as everyone who knows about you...
I believe that every people that knew about you while hear about this new will have same feeling with me...
Upset likes me...
I’m always thought about one thing...
If I’m giving an opportunity to go over U.S. again...
I’m 100% guarantee that I will goes to SNP in order to meet with you again...
However, I don’t even have this opportunity to meet with you anymore...
You always in my minds, and I believe that I will not forget you throughout my whole life...
You such an important person in my life...
No matter previous, now or in my futures times...
I believe I can’t even meet a guy like you anymore...
Thanks GOD for giving me a chance to meet with you in SNP...
An awesome guy over SNP...
Thanks GOD for giving me the chance to take part in your life...
And also in my life...
Even you not be here anymore....
But you still alive in my mind, my memories...
Never ended from now till future...
Miss and love you, my/ our Big Daddy- Isaias Gomez...

Broadband Internet Services...

Few months ago, sign for broadband services...
At first, the speed really quick fast...
But now, the speed becomes lousy and lousy...
Second things that make me feel disappointed are regard their services...
Charges extra amounts for my monthly fix payment...
Call the service centre to fix it up every month...
Until nowadays they still unable to solve my problem...
Just always asks me to pay...
Yet, bar my services every month...
Not only once in a month, but sometimes few times in a month...
After call them to unbar, haven’t able to connect to the internet, already bar back my services automatically...
Need me to call again...
Not only that...
Every time call to their customer services centre, no people pick up the phone for few minutes...
However the charges of my phone bills already start calculate...
After the OIC pick up the phone, need me to repeat the same things again...
After provide them the information that they request, asks me to hold my line again....
Is okay, I can wait if just a moment...
But, they always hold my line for few minutes...
After check it, they will repeat the same things as previous OIC told you...
Inform the overdue amount of your account again...
Then, as a customer, you may need to repeat the whole story again...
After listen to what you describe, they ask me to hold and he wants to check...
If you ask about other things, for instance how are your account statement or regards the wrong charges, the progress of your case, they will request me to hold and they want to check it again...
Same thing keep on repeating...
Non-stop...
I’m so curious neither their services nor the system their using currently...
May I know how lousy or even worst of their services are?!!
Is that they can’t saw or even access to our/customers account strictly?
By right, their system should have the customer records!!!
Those records may in the same file or in the system that under customer profile...
So, why they always ask me to hold my line and check it again???
In my opinion, they are able to see all the customer records right away without asking the customer to hold their line for few minutes...
If your system really likes that worst, then you should upgrade or change your system to a better version!!!
Ask, hold, check and wait...
Those steps may need use up unless 10 minutes...
If more than 20 minutes, is normal...
As you can see or count...
My phone charges for every times call to the service centre may not a smaller amount...
Every month call for few times...
Phones charges for calling them keep on increase...
Didn’t help customer to fix their problem but make trouble to them!!!
Back to realistic...
Even you try all sources to make the complaint...
I still encounter the same problem every month...
As a company that provide services, they really can become most terrible service Provider Company...
Is time to cut off these services already once my contract mature...
Please don’t provide these kinds of services to the customers...
Not only your company image becomes poor, yet customer will lost their trustworthiness to your brand...
Nowadays is hardly to make customer loyal towards some things but the opposite feeling about it really very easy....
Speechless regards their services...
Really feel disappointed!!!
Hopefully next month neither me nor they need not to repeat the same scenario again...

糟糕透顶的一周。。。

烦躁，烦躁，烦躁。。。
不爽，不爽，还是不爽。。。
这几天的心情真是糟透了！！！
终于到了忍无可忍的地步，快要爆发了！！！

想笑却笑不出。。就算对你好的人和你说话，你也会黑着脸似的。。。
讨厌死这样的自己了！！！
不满的不光是别人的所作所为，甚至还包括自己的，糟透了！！！

开始觉得人善被人欺这句话是对的。。。
有时给脸色别人看也有好处。。。
会让别人觉得你不是一个好欺负的人，也不会对你太过。。。

一件又一件不如意的是接踵而来，让人喘不过气！！！为什么就没有一件好事发生在你的周围呢？？？
不解。。。
唉。。。
只能怪自己倒霉嘛。。。

有太多要做的事，却没有一件实事办好的。。。
时间一点一滴的流失。。。
然人无所失措。。。
天呀，可不可以给我多一些写的时间呢？？？
为什么时间流失的那么得快啊？？？
有谁能告诉我吗？？？
哎。。。

只希望，
希望明天会是美好的一天。。。
我想做的事都可以在明天搞定，该收的东西收得到，
那样对我来说就真的是太完美了。。。

明天，美好的明天呀，你快来吧！！！
不要再让我等下去了。。。
拜托啦！！！
Please...

Medallion...

Recently, very busy….

Is that I worried too much, is it because I carry too much things on my shoulder, is that I worry so much about the foresight of others and unable express what I feel, I do not know….

Just hope and wish other peoples will not give me trouble and heavier burden of me…

Every times also like that, when you are very busy, something new problems will arise without you acknowledge and need you to solve it in short span of time…

Always said no choice is my choice…

But, is that I really have no choice….

Right…

In this few days, I really can appreciate- “no choice is my choice” – the true meaning of it…

You will not ever know what your feeling is unless you force by others and you need to experience it…

I think, I need strength to make me be brave…

If can, I really hope that I can apply self esteem maintenance kit into my daily life!!!

I need those resources apply in my life…. I need those resources to help me growth…

If I have “Medallion”- I think I could be more honest to myself…

I want to be myself own choice maker…

Do not ever influence by others and follow what others said and let those people back step on me…

But why did I unable to do, do what I want to do, stay away from everything - feel relieved

I just want live in a peaceful environment, does not means that I am a person who can bully…

Oirginia Salin mentions that the problem is not the problem; coping is the problem…

“We have choices, especially in terms of responding to stress instead of reacting to situation”…

I hope Salin Therapeutic Belief is true, and really can be applying in my own…

Step by step, help me to cope all of my problems and become our own choice maker….