Thanksgiving ceremony...

21/11/2009, 星期五，该是我回家的日子。。。

但，因今晚是PHP为member举办的thanksgiving ceremony的日子，所以就待在金宝。。。

可惜。。。天空不作美，竟然下起雨来。。。

唉，没办法，唯有撑着雨伞走路去。。。希望不会迟到就好。。。

幸好，只是刚开始，当时松了一口气。。。

进到auditorium room时，刚开始播movie。。。

刚动，真的很感动。。。也有好一阵子没有被一套戏感动到流眼泪了。。。

真的是一部很值得看的戏。。。-“Pay It Forward”也译作“把爱传下去”。。。

虽然，主角最终不幸去世了。。。但，我觉得他想要做的是毕竟是成功了。。。

虽然可惜，但谁也忘不了他的那一份“真心”，是多么的纯洁。。。

相信人与人之间，还是存有“爱”的。。。

有空的朋友，不妨看看。。。或许有些人，第一次，第二次看都没有什么感觉，但，我是真的被感动到了。。。希望大家会用心来看这部戏。。。

Movie review过后，是颁发certificate给member的时间了。。。

虽然段战，但过程也栓蛮温馨的。。。

完成整个module的会员，都分享了他们的感想。。。虽不是很“formal”的感觉，但也觉得很“warm"...

我想，要向他们般偶尔参加一些活动，那在大学的生活才不至于被白白浪费掉，且又让人回味的价值吧。。。真想像他们一样，active起来。。。

不知不觉，也到了结束的时间。。。当然，我们也不会忘了把这这重要的一刻拍下来，作为纪念。。。

就像老实说的，这不是一张普通的"cert",而是一张需要我们经过一些课程，学了一些技巧，人是人与人之间的一种关系而得来的。。。

虽然不知是否真的做到，但“we love, we care, we share" 这句slogan我会牢记在心的。。。

希望在我往后的日子可以付诸于行动。。。

Module three, 希望可以在里面学习到更多，令人期待的。。。

怕。。。

很怕，真的很怕。。。

昨天刚考完试，今天拿起来看时，竟然发现有很多都做错了。。。

算算自己可以得到的分数。。。

心顿时凉了。。。

怕。。。怕需要从新读过。。。怕。。。怕需要从新考过。。。

怕。。。怕又要浪费钱。。。

焦虑。。。

怪，只能怪自己。。。

但，

但愿一切都还好。。。

Malacca...

09-08-2009- Trip in Malacca…

In my opinion, that is no reason for me goes to Malacca…

In my point of view, Malacca is the place that is bored and not attractive at all…

But, after I go there, I know what I think is wrong… Actually, Malacca is a nice place…

Many history places can see at there… Furthermore, environment at there are nice…

Walk in a long distance at there… feel hot and tired… but never mind, still enjoy…

Dinner at Malacca… the place that is very famous… wait for one hour more until 9.00p.m.to have a dinner at that shop- Capitol Restaurant…

Even thought, the environment and the size of the shop is just like normal shop and small, but still have many people will chose to eat at there… after we have our dinner, still have many people waiting at outside… I think that they need to wit until 11.00p.m. Only can have their dinner at there… patient ya, k…

Then, after that, we go to the place that “eyes of Malaysia” built at…

Walau eh… hard to go there… the roads seem like not systematic for me… miss one “road” also need to spend a long time to get back the right road to go there… or maybe because we don’t know the short cut of it…

Desire to go there and take the photo while it builds in KL… Unfortunately no chance for me…

Feel happy finally have opportunities to take picture and sit inside of it at Malacca…

For me, the price of ticket is very expensive… just a few minute cost us around RM 10…

All of us 5 people also need to spend RM 50 for that few minutes… But my sister friend said: “just get inside, need not to think coz we already at there…” then…haha…need not used my money also can enjoy it… so good…

Go back to hotel after that… really feel tired and sleepy today…

However, feel happy too… try different things that I didn’t experience before…

Hope that I can experience more next time…

KL...

07-08-2009

Sister Convocation… we (family) go to KL attend the convocation on 08-08-2009…

Before go, need to do the individual assignment… feel rush, then din sleep for two days to rush for assignment…

Want to attend, therefore need to sacrifice something…

Go to KL…

So good, this kind of feeling… long time didn’t go out from Ipoh and Kampar already…

Always stay at Ipoh and Kampar, feel bored… don’t know what happened at outside… Seem like “frog under the well”…

Take many pictures and eat different kinds of food at there… very enjoy and delicious…

Unfortunately, didn’t have time for me to take picture inside the hotel… environment at the hotel really beautiful… really love it…

30th August 2009

30th August 2009…
Actually should go out celebrate coz tomorrow is our country national day and my best friend birthday…
However, I chose to stay at home… sorry, friend coz didn’t attend your birthday party…
Hope you will forgive me…
Just want to wish you all the best and wish you all dreams come true, girl… smile always… really love you and care of you, k…
All at all, sorry for any inconvenience…

fall in sick....

Sick already… so cham…

Long time din like that, suddenly fall in sick, make me feel a bit happy and worried…

Happy…. Many people will feel weird… but, actually, sometimes fall in sick, make me fell that I miss these kinds of suffer…

Worried… worried that I bear in H1N1… but luckily, just normal ill only…

Fevers, flu, coughs around 4 days… until now still not recover yet… go to school also need to wear mask… make me hard to take a breath… when want to say something also hard…

some more, my coughs become worst… cough until I feel that my throat become hurt and pain already… dunno when will cough until have blood only…

Fall in sick, actually cannot eat many things… but I still got eat the food that are not allow eating… maybe, I want my throat become worst until cannot voice out any single words…

Last time cannot voice out is two years ago already… miss this kinds of feeling and situation…

Watch the movie and sleep only… never sleep this much… one day spends more than 12 hours sleep without do nothing… but still feel that very tired and not enough rest yet…

Hope can sleep more and more….

However, sick make me feel that I very lonely also… no people know that you are sick already and will care of you… ok, never mind, in futures, I will feel very blissful once that is a people really care of me occur… I think every people who fall in sick will have this kinds of feeling… hope I not mistaken…

Go to school… generally, few of my classmate also sick like me… dunno is because our problem or environmental factors…

Therefore, at here, just hope all of you no matter people that I know or I dunno, really need to take care your own health with careful… drink more water, and don’t wait until throat feel dry only drink water… if not, will suffer later… remember ya…

about quiz...

心情非常差。。。

伤心，失望，低落的感觉蜂涌而出。。。

应该是刚刚考完quiz的关系吧。。。结果并未达到自己的期盼，不但如此，还考得很烂，说真的，我真的非常讨厌这种感觉。。。

这个结果，令我有一种想哭的感觉，而在不自觉间，原来，眼泪早已在眼眶里打滚。。。低落的感觉说不出口。。。这种感觉真得很糟。。。

但，又能干啥呢？？？只能怪自己做得不好，不够努力。。。

虽说如此，可心里还是有一种不甘心的感觉。。。

我想，这就是所谓的人生吧。。。不如意事十常八九。。。种种的困难都要自己面对，解决。。。过错，伤心是一时；但错过，却是永远的后悔。。。

考那么烂的成绩，只能怪自己平时太懒散了。。。将所有要做的事都推到最后一分钟才肯动手做。。。不到最后一分钟都不急，管它天塌下来还是怎样。。。

但，我想，以后再也不能这样了。。。要积极一点才行。。。不可以继续以这样的生活态度过活。。。要不然永远都不会进步，改变。。。只有一味的后悔和失败感。。。

总之，从今天开始，要开始一点一滴的改变，不可以再蹉跎岁月下去了。。。

反正，年龄也老大不小了，再不努力的话，就一切都完了，什么愿望都无法达成。。。

现在开始，要把握现在，掌控未来。。。不可再一成不变。。。。。。

Barbeque (Saturday, 21/02/2009)

Saturday, our group having a barbeque in our course mate house…
So, this week I didn’t go back to my hometown…
Most of us join in this event… and just have three of our course mate didn’t joint in…
Actually, by having a barbeque, that have a lot of things need prepared…
But, most of us didn’t help them to prepared… so, thanks for you guys who help inside to make our party go on with smooth and successful…
Wah… so hot lah when I want grill the food…
All smoke is going up, then come to my face… make me want cry already…
Even thought like that, but I still continue to grill my food…
No matter what happened, I still want grill it’s…
Coz, barbeque is like that one mah… all of us will become dirty and wetly…
But how? We all enjoy it; right… so, we call it’s as crazy barbeque night…
Take picture, eating, play game… in addition, celebrate course mate birthday…
“Happy Birthday, Therra… Wish you all the dreams come true…k…” (see, her eat corn that i grill just now)... hehe...
So full lah… we really eat too many already… the food is so nice… Even thought the food is not healthy…
Happy day… all of us just continue laughing, laughing and laughing…
Haha… all of us just like crazy already…
Doing some stupid thing… especially our course representative and Choi Wan…
“Shock” lah, two of them…want to know what’s going on… mmm… is secret… hehe…
Some of our course mate is very, very active…
They play water until their body fully wet…
We too noisy, until the neighbor complaint which is more than one time…
Who care… we still continue our party like previous to…
Night already… people start going home…
Some of us just go inside the house chatting, play with their pets- rabbit…
So cute… I also wish I can have some pets…
After a while, all of us go back…coz really feels sleepy already…
But why arr…when go back on-line…
Thru msn there… one of our course mates say feel sed... Die loh… Will boycott by all of us…
Confuse… don’t know what happened… weird lah…
Whatever lah… we still feel very enjoyable tonight…
Thanks for having this crazy barbeque night…

HAPPY DAY

Hee… just now finish edit my assignment…
After that, send to my group member to have a look…
Haha… after he take a look, he say is ok… just need to edit a bit…
And, he says he like some part of my assignment…
Wah!!! Oh my god… he likes it… didn’t say anything will hurt my feeling, and call me to redo it….
Really feel very, very happy…
You all don’t know arr… My group member, always want be the best one…
If he don’t like or thought our assignment is too bad, he won’t give face to us one…
Even though he didn’t say our assignment is very bad or not hit to the point, but he will use the better or good words ask us think for it, or give his opinion to us…
At that time, you should know, this meant what loh…
So, when he says my assignment part is ok, I really don’t worried already…
Of course, still need our lecturer have the same opinion, it will be better…
Huhu… see… it show that I can do it without your help one…
I know I have my authority and responsibility to finish my required work…
Just is before you don’t trust or believe I also have my ability to do the work or assignment…
Of course, until now, I still believe you have the same mind set…
For you, my image or my work is worse…
But, did you know???
If “I think I can, I can”
Except of this… another reason is… hehe…
My sister just goes back from her trip to Hong Kong…
And she got buy some souvenirs for me… include t-shirt, belt, watch and…
Haha… very feel very, very happy…Yeah…
Have many, many present which is need not me paid for it…
haha…
Don’t know when, is my turn to buy souvenirs for my family members…
Hopefully, I can go to tour soon…
But, I think now also should be ok…
Even though I didn’t go to tour, but, still have souvenirs, right…
Satisfied in this moment…

Kaitlyn...

Kaitlyn… is the name which just chooses by me as my nickname…
Don’t know why, I want my first letter of nickname start with alphabet k…
So, when I first time see this name- kaitlyn, I’m very like it…
After I know the name analysis of this name, I felt that the name of Kaitlyn is suitable for me… I thought…
What is the result of analysis of this name??? Haha… secret…
What I can tell is this name has an Irish origin and means "pure”…
A Greek goddess who was also called Kaitlyn the beautiful...
Actually, it does consist some negative meaning, but I still make decision to use this name become my nickname…
Why??? Just because this name likes my personality… Some of my characteristic… Hehe…
Name of Kaitlyn origin comes from name of Caitlyn, Caitlin, and Katherine…
In my opinion, I thought this name is not very special…
Thus, it’s been using by many people…
See… I am one among them, right…
Haha… but never mind… not special, not special lah…
It’s not a main point….
The important thing is “I like it, is ok!!!”
Theirfore, start on this moment, I have my English nickname…
So, please don’t call me as Mary, Michelle or others again, k…
Thanks for your co-operation ya, friends…
Remember…Kaitlyn, is my nickname…
Thanks…

Suddenly...

Suddenly, on my mind, appears something negatively…….
Or maybe is my real feeling…….
And, its all is about somebody…
Feel very unsatisfied with somebody….
Just want to tell somebody don’t always think that you are very important person…
Without you, all things will go to the wrong site, and we are the people who are not useful…k…. in our mindset, we just want all the things going smoothly….don’t want unhappy things occur between us…k…
And don’t think that your result is better than me showing that you are more, more, more clever and better than me, k…
I’m not the person who is stupid. I’m just lazy, not hardworking as you, k…
Don’t ever have this kind of way of thinking…
And, advices you don’t think that I didn’t do anything when we are in one group…k…
In realistic is…..
You don’t give anything to me do and you say you can do it by your own….
You can divide the job to us, but you didn’t do like that…
But, after that, you will feel that I didn’t do anything inside the group…
Is that my false or is your problem???
I won’t say is all yours false…
I know myself also having some problem…
But the main point is you don’t trust us!!!!!!
Without trust between us, how the work can be done by us….
Don’t always think that your result is better than me showing that you are more, more, more clever and better than me, k…
Don’t ever have this kind of way of thinking…
I’m not the person who is stupid. I’m just lazy, not hardworking as you, so, my result is worse than you, k…
Maybe you think that we are stupid, so din give the work to us…
But, I think we also can do the great job or good work in our group….
Or maybe you thought that we are very lazy, if give work to us, we cannot completely its on time… but, is you know…. If it is my work, I will do it without say anything and will give it’s to you on time…coz, I know this is my responsibility…k…
When you say you can do it by yourself, do you think we feel happy coz need not involve ourselves inside the work???
Sorry to say that, I din feel happy at all… I just feel very unsatisfied with your action…k…
Off course, after teacher gives us high mark, I will feel happy, but I will feel that, I don’t know what happened inside this work…and I din do anything inside the work we have done….
Hope that you will become mature a bit, and know how to solve the problem that I think inside yourselves… so, next time when you doing others work, between can have something call “teamwork” spirits occur you and your group…..
Off course, I also need improve myself when I’m in one group with somebody….
So, together “jia you”, k….